headache in my environment

Gee, there sure is a lot of blogs out there, something makes me think that mine isn't all that different. Seems like using pictures is important. We live in a viual world

I ran out of prozac a couple weeks ago (not like i was remembering before that) and have really been feeling it. Also ran out of ibuprofin and T4s so my headaches were nasty and I had to rely on my coping skills to ease the pain. Coping is important for anyone with chronic pain otherwise we spiral into a depression. There's a strong link there; emotional and physical pain. I often wonder which came first for me because one generally causes the other.

My family didn't believe that I was suffering from headaches; they believed I was suffering from lack of attention. Mom humored me by buying things like cod liver oil (3 tablespoons daily), and crushed aspirin on a spoon mixed with pancake syrup . It really makes me sad to this day to know that they had no sympathy for my pain and the things they did were just to try to get me to shut up. I was sent to my room to lay down (which laying down ironically causes a major increase in pain). No sense in dwelling on it now. As a grownup I find that it never gets me anywhere to blame, but I do it anyway.

I got my T4s refilled just the other day and my pain has dropped tremendously. Unfortunately opiates are bad I hear. I could talk about opiates, pain relief, and my personal experiances but you really can't get the whole picture unless you lived in my shoes.

As I read this book "All In My Head" by Paula Kamen I find that I'm really not all that different from others with daily headaches. In fact I'm actually the normal candiate for chronic headaches and migraines: childhood abuse (sexual, verbal, & emotional), lack of attention (big family), childhood trauma (brother dying and mom leaving), and overweight. All that makes my pain less real when you take it into account. Plus people already see me as a whiner.

Speaking of whining, Cody isn't allowing me much time to myself so I have to end this.

photophobia headache

Last night I was going to write on here but my head was killing me so I simply didn't.

I've been working on my hemp jewelry and posted a few of them on my Etsy. It really helps to relax me and makes me feel like I have another purpose (even if I'm not really making any money). Plus it gives me a slight creative release. I can't express as much as I want to but hey, its a start, right.

I took the kids to the airplane park yesterday and they had a lot of fun: we didn't need to spend a dime, either. When I got home though my headache was a flucuating 7/8 even 9 at a couple points. Mike came home shortly after we did and he immediately could tell I was hurting. He gives these sympathetic looks where he presses his lips together and spreads his brows while tilting his head ever so slightly. When he did that last night I paid close attention to how I may have appeared: i was wearing a little bit of makeup from the morning, mostly likely smudged a bit around the eyes and temples; normally I squint when my head hurts and I wasn't this time but my lids were heavy; also when I hugged him I just held onto him for a few moments and leaned into his chest pretending he was a giant magical pillow of pain and stress relief. I was also nauseous as hell which just means that my head was definately hurting badly.

I took a few more ibuprofin before the night was out and it seemed to settle it enough to sleep. This morning, however, it was back. I took some ibuprofin an hour ago and it seemed to have helped a wee bit. Thank goodness I ruled out rebound headaches time and time again because thats what any reader might assume and I assure you thats not it.

Cody and I just had lunch and we were gonna go outside and play for a bit but I'm not looking forward to it, honestly. The sunlight isn't good for me and will just diminish everything that the ibuprofin just accomplished. Plus I either sit there and watch him (maybe read or make some jewelry) or play with him which is fun for a little while but he cries when you wanna stop even if you've been blowing bubbles with him for hours. Gotta take care of my little Cody even when it causes me excruciating pain.

*deep breath* here we go...

luf
becky

chronic daily headache: Day 2

I'm supposed to be writing about my headache everyday (for research purposes not venting purposes) and its been weeks so so far I'm not doing all that well so maybe I can sum it up for ya because I know my pain well.



After recovering from bronchitis the days were nice for a while so the kids deserved to go outside and we did. When the days are nice and sunny I suffer from photophobia (sensitivity to light) and the wind causes an instant rise in pain. Pain steals my nice days, too.



And then of course here in southern Ontario we've been experiancing record breaking barometric pressure shifts. The weather goes up and down; up and down; up and down; up and friggin down again and it sucks so terribly. So this past week I've experianced 3 seperate migraines and headaches all above 7 on the painscale.

I cope. Thats me with a flucuating 7/8 migraine.

This morning I woke with a tiny number 3 headache which is good for me. I've been experiancing allergies associated with pollen I'm pretty sure and thats new. Thank goodness its tolerable. Just some watery eyes mostly and a little itchy-sneezy-nose-blowing stuff.

I'm thinking about testing for potato sensitivity. This may sound funny/odd to a new reader but the truth is that I've gone through and ruled out many many headache triggers and there really isnt much left to detox/introduce again.

luf
Headache Expert, Becky Greene